hm...

tis weird, my blog turned from the, Online diary that I meant it to be to a "when-I'm-'bout-to-blow-come-here-and-rant-instead"...

but that's 'kay... leads to less mess 'cause I blow up less :P

I've been really stressin' lately... between School, Homework, Carlo, and work I have just 'bout no time...
I don't even have the time I wish I had with Carlo because of all the other junk that keeps getting in the way.
And ,I know, August sounds far off now, but, its a lot closer than we realize... I mean, look how fast last year flew by...
and in August, I'm going off to college... without Carlo. I want to be spending every spare moment with him, starting now, before I leave... but it feels like I have less and less spare moments. And the farm being 20+ minutes away, I can't just, pop over there for a quick, Hey'a... And I haven't been doing as well in shows 'cause I haven't had the time out there that I used to, and we moved up 6"...

and then there's work... I hate standing there at the register for a couple of hours. My feet hurt, and all that repitition ish really messing with my riding, and not in a good way.
some of these people that I have to deal with are downright rude. Most of them are okay, but those few... *rolls eyes*
By the time I leave, tis late, my feet hurt, and I'm starved.
the only bright spot in that ish that one of the other cashiers and I have become great friends.

then there's the fact that I feel like I don't have time to get all my homework done some days because of work

and most of the friends that I'm really close to? they live a couple of hours away, at least... the people I want to see the most, are the ones I see least...
Don't forget my 'friend' from my previous post, that whole situation ishn't helping my stress level either, for the record...((I know, what record? we're keeping one? :P))

And I haven't been sleeping well... I'm a night owl by nature, it takes me FOREVER to fall asleep, and then I have to get up early to go to school....

*sigh*
I'm going to try that now... bed... book... Carlo tomorrow, for a short time, 'cause I have to rush back for my Creative Writing Poetry Reading...